As the morning comes, I wake to the light and smile. The sun. It has finally come to warm this cold Minnesota town. It has been a long, unforgiving winter. As I open the window, the birds greet me with their morning song. It is the most beautiful sound and again, I smile. The air is crisp and a faint smell of dew is in the air. God has surely painted a beautiful picture this morning. I enjoy the view, as rabbits run and birds fly. My cup of coffee is a comfort. This is a most wonderful day. Thank you, Lord for giving this day to me.
Today was the day I was found. While I was not lost, I was walking a path that was unclear and out of focus. I was not able to see what my future would become and was not looking forward with much hope. This morning, hearing one song veered me back toward the path on which I was meant to be. Music empowers me in different ways and today this song touched me deeply. I need to change for the better, my family needs this from me. I replayed the song no less than six times.
I know what I need to do with my life and what has been found within me. While the Lord has never left my side, I turned away from and not toward Him for help, guidance, strength and peace. Sometimes, being strong means forgiving yourself and accepting the help of others when it is offered. I am more aware and alive than I have been in a long time. I thank God for granting the gift of writing music and lyrics for others to share with us. Music has once again shown me the way and hit me right between the eyes with this song. I have been found.
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I came up, out of the water
Raised my hands, up to the Father
Gave it all to Him that day
Felt a new wind kiss my face
Walked away, eyes wide open
Could finally see where I was going
It didn’t matter where I’d been, I’m not the same man I was then
I got off track, I made mistakes
Back slid my way into that place, where souls get lost,
lines get crossed and the pain won’t go away
I hit my knees, now here I stand
There I was, now here I am.. Here I am. Changed.
I got a lot of “hey I’m sorry”s, the things I’ve done,
Man that was not me I wish that I could take it all back,
I just wanna tell ’em that.. tell ’em how
I’ve changed for the better. More smiles, less bitter…
I’m even starting to forgive myself. Yes I am
I hit my knees, now here I stand
There I was, now here I am, here I am, here I am I’m changed.
Yes I am.. I’ve changed for the better
Thank God, I changed
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I give thanks to my wonderful family for always standing beside me, even when the choices I make turn out to be the biggest disasters.
I give thanks to my husband, who has to lives with me, the crazy codependent, and still loves me.
I give thanks to my children who are exceptional people and will always carry a piece of my heart with them.
I give thanks for my birds and dogs, as they provide unconditional love and needed therapy on stressful days.
I give thanks for my job, as I am able to provide for my family.
I give thanks to my friends, for always listening to me, knowing and understanding me, and still being my friend.
I give thanks to the people who read my blog, as they give me the courage and will to continue writing.
I give thanks to all Veterans who always give more than they receive and deserve more of our respect and gratitude.
I give thanks to my Lord for carrying me through the hard times, showing me that faith is priceless, and continuing to promise me grace and love after all the mistakes I have made.