In the past, I felt I needed to be liked or “loved” by almost everyone with whom I come into contact. I craved attention, while at the same time blending in with the wallpaper. I was agreeable in any conversation, even if I truly disagreed with the subject or opinions surrounding it. I was always the one person who made everyone comfortable, the mediator, the thermostat, the “middle child.” The one person who others would tell their secrets, or problems, like there was a neon sign above my head declaring that I was a great listener and was open for business. My need to be loved overshadowed the inner turmoil and uncomfortableness I would feel around some men, which always led to regret and sadness.
On my journey to independence from codependency, I have learned that I can speak my mind and state my own opinions without fear. At times, I believe I speak my mind more loudly than I should. and will later second guess myself. The guilt still tries to creep in, or the need to explain or excuse myself. I stand behind my convictions, and am strong in my beliefs. I am now the square peg and do not fit into the round hole. Being strong suits me and I feel I do not need to look for love any longer, but accept the true love and friendship I am finding along my journey. Love me for who I am, not for who you want me to be.
- Choose Happy (yogisanonymous.com)
- He said, She said: CoDependency vs. True Love – How to Tell Them Apart http://www.delmartimes.net/2011/04/23/dr-he-said-she-said-codependency-vs-true-love-%E2%80%94-how-to-tell-them-apart/
- Don’t confuse codependency for passion (elaineneo89.wordpress.com)
- Love is… (mskarenminor.wordpress.com)